I hate my name. I feel that it doesn't represent who I am at all. Jessica sounds like a happy-go-lucky, cheery all the time cheerleader name to me. I am not this--I am dark and mellow. The worst thing is introducing myself to people because I feel as if I am lying about my name, like I am giving them a false name, because I don't feel like a Jessica. The sad thing is I don't know who I feel like.